Thanks for all the support, guys. The report came back from the doctor in the mail today and it isn't all that bad. The old gut isn't perfect but it is not as bad as feared. That said, the doctor who performed the procedure told me that he agrees with my primary care doctor. He said if I don't start to handle the stress better, it won't be as good next time...
I have been doing what they told me and doing things that I like to do and keeping work and other pains of life at an arm's distance. Fishing has not been one of the things I have done, as of yet, but I did take this past weekend and built a bed for my daughter to bring to college. I haven't taken two whole days out to do woodworking in literally forever. It was incredible. And the bed even turned out pretty good!
Today, I got myself all wrapped up in my underwear at at work and left 30 minutes after I have been and I felt it. That was good. I think it is working.
I really need to finish the bed this weekend, so no fishing, but soon...soon. I know there will be a lot more time once the two kids go back to school. And I have a bunch of vacation days left....cant wait.
I think I may be reaching the age where a guy starts thinking about his life and if what and who he was and is really matters or mattered. I believe this happens more in men than women, but I could be wrong. I think I spent so much time trying to make sure my family had what they needed and I got into a rut.
I talk to my kids, especially my son, and I see so much of me in them....me when I was young. I was going to make a difference. I was going to change things. I was going to fix things. I was going to do things right.
Then life happened.
I didn't totally sell out but I didn't do everything I said I was going to do. Well, I did very little of the grandiose things I thought I would.
And now I hear him saying the same sorts of things. I don't want to burst his bubble, if you know what I mean. I hope he does a better job than me.
But now I am in retrospection, so I should actually be glad I had this little episode; otherwise, I would never have taken the time. Funny how things that start out poorly end up being a really good thing.