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Kerry Pitt

Thoughts on my mind.

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So it has been a while since I posted last, but I have to be in the right frame of mind to say anything anywhere.
Over the last couple of years I have been debating the relationship I had or have with God......sorry I do not like that word, it carries too many negative connotations for me but people refer to him as God, I think of "him" as an entity that is not He or She, does not adust all of our lives individually all of the time. I believe we have the freedom to create our own destiny and to come to have a relationship with "God" should we wish. At least to me it seems like it would have to be this way for our lives to mean much of anything.
I was recently made aware or rather reminded of the existence of a higher power,m attending a Church I like and conversing with a Pastor as I come to terms with my thoughts. I like this guy because he does not spend a second persuading me he listens and in my own words I find answeres, in the Sermons at Church I find my own messages not neccessarily that which is given that day.
Okay so by some standards I live in sin with Judy and I intend to rememdy that very soon, but meanwhile she and I are subject to some criticism by her friends. Friends who have children living in sin or friends who think she should not have a relationship because she had a terrible accident a few years ago and though she recovered they do not give her credit for her ability to overcome adversity. They dare not face me, but they made sly comments to her, however they have misread Judy. She has incredible strength of will and does not suffer these comments, apparently I am important enough to fight for and Judy's faith in God is enough to cause me to look again at where I want to be.
I go to Church for myself, not for her friends and I take from Church what I want, not what others want me to take. Can Human's never just let things be simple? Must we personalize and complicate everything? Thank goodness I have outside interests or I might get really angry, I am my own person. Funny, one of the sermons I listened to said that "Jesus was different and walked his own path." I liked that, I thought 'I could like this guy, that I would fish with him and listen to what he has to say." So I continue my journey, walking a path of my own following a Man I would like to have fished with.