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Posted 04-14-2013 at 05:56 AM by Kerry Pitt

I miss my Kids. Someone, a friend told me I would get over the "Empty Nest" syndrome soon enough. I really hope I don't. I mean sure it hurts to miss them, but off all the things I have done in this world, being a Parent has been the best thing, the most enjoyable and rewarding thing, but it also came with its share of pain and hurt. I remember another friend telling us to stop having children because we were giving pregnancy a bad name. We were a High Risk pregnancy situation so things were always tense until, well actually for weeks and months afterwards.
I know this may sound foolish but I did not truly understand what love was until I looked my newborn Daughter in the eyes. She was very sick, they did not think she would live out the day, but when she looked at me for the first time I knew that no matter what, I would help her live.
My next Daughter was healthy at birth then my Son was born with a lung issue. The Doctors and Nurses assured me that he would be ookay but they flew him to a Children's Hospital so there was little solice.
I remember when he came home he was on oxygen for a few weeks and I used to sit in this big rocking chair and rock him to sleep. If I fell asleep first he would grunt and wake me up. Little bugger would look smug I am certain.
I focused on doing whatever I could to be a good Dad. I had been a bad father in a previous marriage, too young, too immature, but I knew I was getting another chance and I wanted to make things good for my kids. Over the years I believed I succeeded in doing everything that I could to give my children a good life. We took them fishing, camping hiking. I almost never missed a school function. I am sure their Teachers thought I was unemployed but my job gave me the ability to attend almost whenever I wanted to.
During this time I started trying to find a relationship with my Daughter from my first marriage and today I have a better one with her as well. I have four Grandchildren by her and now I am working on getting to know them as well.
When my second marriage went bad, my now ex wife sought to alienate me from my children, she told them many things about me that were not true in order to have them on her side. My Daughter's bought into it for a time but my Son did not. I think there is a bond between Daughter's and Mother's that is very strong. I called her on it, but it still took a couple of years for my girls to start talking to me again. In all that time, if I knew they needed something I tried to make sure they got it. I loved them, it is unconditional what else could I do.
Of all the things I have done in this world the most worthwhile thing has been raising my children and if it hurts a little when I think of them and they have gone to have their own lives, then so be it. I want to feel it because it reminds me of what is important in this world, in my life. The only legacy I will ever leave behind that means anything, is my children.
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